Letting Go

So much on my mind. First and foremost, I'm trying so hard to get writing again. I realized that I just have to set the pen on the page and write until sometimes happens. Maybe I'll end up with a ridiculous paragraph, maybe I'll end up with a brilliant story. I just have to try. It's not about success or failure, it's about trying. Letting go of that has been a huge help. It's finally happening. I'm finally writing again. There is no better feeling.

I've also been thinking a lot about relationships. In general. My relationships. Past, present, and future. I've been thinking about what I contribute, and what I need in return. Who's best suited for me and who is poisonous for me. It can be difficult because I naturally try to please people. I'm a giver. I've always had awful self-esteem. I've stayed in a lot of bad situations because I've wanted to keep the other person happy. Sometimes, you just have to look after yourself. With my nature, I have to surround myself with people who appreciate how much I give and who give back accordingly. From here on out, I accept nothing less.

I trust the Universe will bring to me what I need.